Kotobian tadau tagazo do kaamatan guys! Its been a while since my last post which was a few months back. Time flies so fast and i nearly cannot imagine myself in the end of my second semester in first year and a few months later i will become a second year student! Well, lets be honest. I dont really think i can do well in my second semester, i was in a culture shock being a non resident students or in another words, i live by my own already. Yes, i drive everyday to Uni and live alone in my family apartment! Perhaps some of you wonders why do i choose to live alone, my answer to it is, i enjoy myself live alone,not. haha. Sooner or later, i'll tell the reason ok?

However, the worst thing is i tend to be so so so so so lazy because of there are no distraction at all. At first i thought living alone will be good since my type of study is i rather be alone when i am studying, listening to the raindrops. Kiss the rain-Rainy mood by Yiruma would be my first choice when it come to relax my mind from all those problems. But it all turns in a wrong situation and far from what i imagine. When you live alone, you tend to be sleepy ALL THE TIME. I dont know why but thats it.

I nearly forgot the feeling. Feeling safe, contented and only focus on one point which is studying. Its like, i kinda lost now. I am far from God and theres a feeling that desire a thing that could satisfied me. Empty- describe me the most.

Hectic weeks is waiting for me. A tons of assignments, presentations need to be done. I got re-test for Genetic and oral test for Mandarin on Monday. Biochemistry test in another 1 week. CTU assignments need to be re-touched. Microbiology test results is waiting. Worst things are, i only got 3 weeks lecture, 4 days "study weeks" and 26 JUNE will D-day. Need to boost up my study since i am playing my role as a successful procrastinator very well these days. Sometimes i blame technologies for making me safe and sound in my "comfort zone". I need to get out from comfort zone and face the reality. Hence, i am gonna challenge myself to not tweeting 1st June until D-day except only for important matters. But still, i am not gonna deactivate my linkage to any social network as it is the only way i can communicate with the others especially to my oversea friends.

And as you know, from this weekends until the next-next weekend i will perhaps enjoying myself with many activities. 2nd June or which is this weekend, i will attend a dinner with the Sacus members. The dinner was actually for the Sacus alumni and for the ACAC fund rising. Wish me all the best guys, cause i may need your prayers so that the dinner will be success as i am the emcee that night! 8 June was actually a date set by our lecturer as we sit for our Mandarin Test (again) on that day. 8am till 12am and maybe i will proceed my weekend to Tenom with Sacus members again. But that is still in my consideration, i should works my ass off for the upcoming exam and at least for a month, i should fully focus on my study. And next is , 15 June, i will attend a Biosa dinner or in another words is my faculty dinner. Back when i was still in high school, i do really got very excited when it comes to attend a dinner, but now? It burdens me. *sigh

Should this update enough? I guess i already talk and complain too much. I should be punished for being so lazy and procrastinate all the works. Its 3.40 am and i am still awake and i need to get up very early because i need go back KK as to send my sister to Labuan tomorrow. Just in case if i forgot to mention, i do feel very bad about myself in many aspects. Oo God, i shouldnt be like this! sobsob. Till next entry since i do really need my beauty sleep now. Good night earthlings. Xx










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